It's almost March and in the past 2 months since the New Year I haven't posted or been on Facebook (or Instagram) at all.
This is a pretty big accomplishment for me and I can say that I've grown to hate social media since being off of it.
Well two nights ago I won a costume contest at an Oscars party and had a few drinks. When I got home I was really amped up from winning and one thing led to another anddd I updated my profile picture and cover photo on FB. My boyfriend assures me this doesn't count since I didn't "post" but I've been pretty mad at myself ever since. I was enjoying the freedom and mystery that came with not posting on social media. In the past 2 months I have travelled more and made more real life friends than any other time in my life. Being off of social media has left me feeling more inspired and uplifted. It's made me analyze a lot of things in my life and I've had to reach within to find things to do with my time before scrolling and getting all wrapped up in some virtual world.
My first inclination was just to delete my FB all together as some weird way of saying f*** all of this. However, I do like having the option of using messenger incase someone needs to reach me. I was embarrassed for telling everyone I wasn't going to post for an entire year just to flaunt off 2 pictures from my trip to Europe in less than 3 months into 2017.
Another part of me thinks this is a great example of life. There's always ups and downs. There's always a part of you that's progressing but sometimes you might fall back a bit. None of us are perfect. Maybe it's not about the mistakes but about the end result. I know very few of my friends could check out of Facebook for even a week- nonetheless an entire year.
So what do I do? I'm not sure. Maybe I delete it or maybe I just chalk it up to some drunken mistake and go easy on myself. The next 9 months will be social media free.
It's not just social media that I want to approve on but my entire life. Change takes time and not going back to our usual daily tasks or habits is difficult. A lot can change in a year but sometimes we won't see how much of a change until we get to the very end.